Markets, Busy Weekends and other ramblings

I feel like I've been at the gym all weekend actually exercising! Something which, if you know me well enough, you'd know I wouldn't do. No, I'd prefer to curl up with a good book!

Why do I feel like this, I hear you ask? Well, Treacle Studio had a three day Festive Fair/Market this weekend at Hathersage Farm in Somerset West.  It was great, but exhausting to say the least. Lugging things to and from our vehicles takes its toll on ones old bones. I made enough scones that if I see another one any time soon I may be physically ill. We also sold enough pancakes to feed a moderately sized village of starving people. So I'm doubting that making more pancake batter anytime soon will be in the cards.

It was interesting to see a lot of people I haven't seen in a while. Someone even had the audacity to tell me I'm obviously so happy and eating so well that I've gotten fat. Now I know I'm no supermodel and I love my food so much that the chances of getting down to a size "a" (aka anorexic) is way beyond my grasp. I know I'm overweight and could stand to loose a few kilograms. But when someone with the tact of a doorknob comes and tells you while trying to be very sweet about it and claiming to be a friend who cares, its hard not to want to reach over and bitch slap them upside the head. This is besides the fact that we never see each other and haven't in years and when we did we weren't exactly joined at the hip either AND she doesn't know about the thyroid and type-2 diabetic issues. I can still take it from someone that truly knows me and has for years, but not from someone like this.

Of course I'm way too diplomatic to be bitch slapping anyone in public. The restraint is pure torture at times, but worth it. However, being sarcastic is my best defence with any threat that comes my way. There is something to be said about saying something that seems so innocent but has quadruple meanings and is dripping with sarcasm. Its very helpful when dealing with stupid people on any level. Sadly though not everyone gets that kind of "humour" and its generally WAY over many peoples heads.

I also find it interesting to watch peoples reactions to seeing me again after such a long time. Previously they would avoid eye contact and ignore me as if I were some sort of sort of pariah. Now they see me, smile and say hi - still with caution though. I find it hilarious actually. Small minded people who don't know how to do anything other than being lead like mindless sheep. I'll still greet them, be friendly and will continue to just be me. I'm done with doing what others want me to do and live in a box of their making. Its claustrophobic in there and your heart dies.


Its sad how many people allow their wings to be clipped and even broken, allowing others to dictate how they should live and what they should think. Is it easier for them to be mindless and just conform? Are they just too lazy to be themselves - be the individuals that God made them to be? Or are people just too scared to go against what someone "powerful" says they should do because they think it will make them an outcast? Everyone has a fear of being rejected, so I guess the latter question could be the problem the majority of people have.


The problem with the "powerful" is that they are more often than not just bullies who revel in dictating and being in control. And they can't deal with it when someone actually stands up to them and says "your ass in a glass buddy - not happening"


Standing up for what you believe in and living your life as you feel it should be lived - those are not easy choices to make. Especially if you've been used to just leaving all those choices up to someone else instead of making them yourself. But you know what? Even someone like that can grow a backbone and finally take a stand. Its a mindset at the end of the day. Why would you want to give someone else the power to dictate your lifestyle, happiness, beliefs or choices. It's not their life to live ... its yours. And you alone will answer for the choices you make in your life.

The personal life deeply lived always expands into truths beyond itself.

-Volume Two (1934-1939) The Diary of Anais Nin

“We can never judge the lives of others, because each person knows only their own pain and renunciation. It's one thing to feel that you are on the right path, but it's another to think that yours is the only path.”
― Paulo Coelho

“Life is too short, or too long, for me to allow myself the luxury of living it so badly.”
― Paulo Coelho

“I can choose either to be a victim of the world or an adventurer in search of treasure. It's all a question of how I view my life.”
― Paulo Coelho

So..... how do you view your life?

xxx
M