Its been a while!

No, I promise I didn't fall off the face of the earth. I be alive! I be alive!

It has been just over a month since my last post. I've been working hard and settling into my job - which I am loving to bits!!! What an awesome bunch of people to be working with! I've set myself up in a cozy space and have made myself very at home - yeah yeah, as only I can.

A lot has happened over the last month. Besides the job. I've been enjoying my relationship with Gareth even more ... its been such an amazing experience for me. We sat down with the kids last week Thursday and spoke to them about him moving in. It was the cutest thing to see their spontaneous responses. Raechel bounced up and down and said "Yay! Uncle Gareth is moving in forever!" Danielle was telling us how she's so "cool" with it. Ethan's only concern was that he wouldn't find a space in the bed if Uncle Gareth was there, after which we both assured him there would always be plenty of for him AND his sisters. Famous last words! G and I were lying down - me reading and him faffing on his laptop when the next moment we had all three of them tackling us on the bed for a rather large cuddle session filled with loads of tickling and laughter! LOL! What fun!

Life is great all around at the moment - I've been so happy, content and blessed over the last few months. I couldn't have wished for more! The only downer I encountered recently was news that my friend had to deliver her stillborn daughter. My heart truly breaks for her. She is such an amazing, wonderful and loving person, that for something like this to happen to her and her husband is unspeakable. It really makes you sit back and take stock of your life. Where you are and what you have. Makes you value every moment. Life is so unpredictable and most times its very unfair. My new friend Alison said it quite beautifully one evening: "Life's a bitch because if it was a slut it would be easy."

So what have I learnt over this last month? I've learnt that terrible things happen to really amazing people, but that those people will survive and continue to push through because the ones they've lost wouldn't want them to stop for anything. I've learnt that I love doing what I do in the work place. I love making people laugh. I've learnt that feeling love, affection, adoration, tenderness, friendship and all those wonderful things are mine for the taking in an unconditional way. I've been shown again how resilient children really are. I've been made even more aware of how amazing, caring, loving and awesome my friends are.

So all around, life is moving forward swiftly. Its being very good to me right now and I'm loving it. I'm just taking it day by day and enjoying the ride so far. I'm hoping that good times will not end and I will continue to make decisions that, at times are not particularly comfortable to make, but will take me to a place that I want to be. The "big picture". It might not be what other people "envisioned" for my life, but thankfully its not about them (since its my life to live). Its about what I need to do to gain the happiness that I deserve. Its about what I need to do to be the example I feel my children need to have.

So, I'll raise my glass of pink bubbles to the powers that be and be grateful for all I have, all I've gained and all I will achieve in the future. And to all of you along for the ride .... buckle up, keep your hands in the vehicle at all times and if you need to use the barf bag, its a little to your left ... no ... your other left ...

xxx