Comic relief

Changes again....

So apparently a change is as good as a holiday ... so I'm going to see if the change to this blog will grow on me or not ...

So much to do, so little time....

It's the final count down! Today in five weeks time my H2B and I will officially be Mr and Mrs Allen. We'll be on the road trip made in heaven ... off on our honeymoon .... so exciting ... 34 days too far away right now! I am desperate for a holiday! Need some time out away from reality and the busyness of my life.

I get this panicky feeling when I start thinking how little time I have left to sort things out. I know I had another dream the other night too ... but for the life of me can't remember what that one was all about. I do know it was wedding day related. I had another dream after that which was work related and that's the one I do remember. It has been rather hectic at work, so I don't get much sleep when I am perplexed about things.

But enough bitching and whining .... look at this:
hahahahahaha! I've been browsing through these online comics and this one is called "Get Fuzzy". You'd have to go read it from the first one because some of them follow on from the last ones. Funny funny funny! I've been loving it. Laughing so much the tears where flowing and my H2B was getting slightly irritated. Nah, he wasn't actually, but I'm sure if I had carried on it would have ended badly! LOL!

Go check it out and let me know what you think!

xxx

Decisions and Choices

While at work today I was contacted by an old friend via Skype with whom I haven't spoken in quite some time. It was lovely to hear from her again. It also made me realise how far I've come over the last 3 years of my life. *Reminisce Reminisce*

My journey (for those of you who don't know already) is something that has been blogged about on this site for some time - feel free to do some catch up and go read about it if you want to. I'm not going to recap on everything now. Needless to say, it has been an incredible journey of self-discovery and growth. I've learnt so much and continue to do so each day. I have an amazing man in my life who I love and adore and who literally treats me like a queen. A great job. A roof over my head, food on the table, a sexy beast of a vehicle and three gorgeous children who I adore. There is almost nothing I could add to my life right now to make it better.

One of my favorite quotations whilst on this journey has to be by the author Anias Nin:

"Then the time came when the risk it took
To remain tight in a bud was more painful
Than the risk it took to blossom."

I love that quote ... it says so much of how I was feeling when I made some life altering decisions for myself. Decisions that would affect everyone around me. Decisions that would take people out of my life. Decisions that would ultimately cut me off from a life I had been leading. Yet it would be a decision that would make me spread my wings.

How liberating. The freedom that comes with a decision that more often than not 90% of people around you would see as sheer madness. Yet, you go ahead anyway. Because in your heart of hearts, in that place where you keep all your deepest and perhaps darkest secrets - the place you tend to hide the real you ... or the parts of yourself no-one wants to see because it might "offend" by not fitting the mold. In that place deep inside your heart and soul, you know its the right thing to do. And not just for you, but for everyone else involved too.

Those decisions are never easy to make either. They force you out of your comfort zone at a speed that could leave you dizzy and nauseous. And they're not decisions that should be made during a fleeting or heated moment either. They require much thought and deliberation. Less emotional energy and more clear thinking. Often much planning needs to be made too ... "get your ducks in a row" as the old saying goes. Making a rushed decision has never ended well. Even risks need to be thought about well before being embarked on.

Having the courage to delve deeply into your own life, heart, soul ... where ever you AND the angels fear to tread ... having the courage to do that is a major accomplishment. It means not lying to yourself and being brutally honest about what you see in there. It means acknowledging your faults and weaknesses and having the courage and strength to change them by any means possible. Of course that means making some hard and conscious decisions that will often take you on a path that is very uncomfortable. But at the end of the day, its about where you want to end up. Your finish line. Your goal post. You decide what type of person you really want to be. You decide where you want to end up one day. You decide what legacy you want to leave behind.

And what is that decision going to be? "OMG I can't make that choice now because it will be too hard" .. ??? ... oh come on! That's not the right attitude to have. You always have a choice in everything you do. Either you're going to be strong, and yes, sometimes hard on yourself, and make the choice to be different. Or you're going to continue to be in the void that is your life. You are the master of your own destiny. The author of your own story. How do you want it to read? What do you want to be remembered for? What do you want your children to learn from you?

And yes, I've heard a lot of excuses from people who have spoken to me about similar big decisions. "Its easy to speak about it, but not so easy to do it Meegyn". No shit Sherlock. Go on and grow a pair ... I had to and I survived. And if I can do that, if I can make a very hard and difficult decision and carry it through, then so can you. You're the only one standing in your way.

It goes without saying that having a support structure around you is helpful. I had people in my life that I though were a support structure. They turned out to be a judgemental bunch of hypocrites. I did, however, have another group that consisted of great friends and family, who have been my strength and have stood up for me when no one else would. Friends who were not always in agreement with my decision, but stood by me anyway because they love me no matter what. Its nice to have real friends in my life. And although it was hard, I'm grateful that through this journey I have discovered who my true friends really are. (You guys know who you are ... and I thank you for all your love and support and want to tell you that without it I wouldn't have made it ... I love you all more than I could ever possibly put into words!)

I'm happy and content with where my life is at right now. I began a journey that I'm sure will not be over for a long time, but certain points of that journey have been passed. They're behind me now and I've driven on. And as with any journey, we focus on what we see before us ... the road ahead ... through the windscreen. Because if we constantly stare in the rear view mirror we'll end up missing a turn and most definitely crashing the vehicle. By all means, take a look in that rear view mirror ... just to make sure you've got nothing coming up behind you to bite you in the arse. But don't focus on that. Focus on your end goal. Focus on where you're going.

Remember too that you never have to travel alone ... there will always be a willing passenger that will keep you company or even help you drive when you're exhausted and can't anymore. Just make sure that person is someone you can trust behind your wheel and not some psycho axe murderer.

Life is hard. Decisions and choices are hard. You CAN do it though. Don't give up!

xxx
Me

60 days to go ....

Oh good Lord Almighty! Here I am, hurtling towards the big day one chocolate at a time like a giant porcus on a pogo stick ....

No, I'm not actually eating a chocolate a day and no I'm also not on a diet of any sort. I think its silly to stress myself out in that way. The way I see it, the Hubby-2-B got to know me and fell in love with me at the size I'm at. So WHY in the name of everything that is good and holy, do I have to go starve myself of something I find so delightfully pleasurable???? I think not dear people of blog land. I think NOT!

I do however have this horrid suspicion that there is tons to do in these "countdown" days and I'm missing something. Probably a good time to start looking at my endless lists and huge file again.

The reason for the horrid suspicion is of course having had another nightmare about the impending nuptuals. Now this was a little while ago (yes yes I know I should update this more often). Basically my entourage and I were all ready to go and perform in the best show the venue has ever seen (work with me here), when I was told that the reception isn't ready, the food is not ready, people are about to leave because its 7pm and the reception had to start at 5pm. I woke up with a panicked feeling and then quickly reassured myself that the wedding ceremony only starts at 5pm so theoretically the reception might only start at 7pm anyway - depending on how long it takes to make us look totally awesome and photographic. AND I've got an awesome bunch of people which includes my amazing Mistress of Ceremonies (Miss T) who will make sure nothing like this dream happens. *sigh of relief and back to sleep*

Now that dream certainly brings up a few of those points to ponder on the to do list.

• make sure the Miss T and company are ready to make sure everything is running smoothly on the day - because there is no ways on this green earth (location dependant) that I'm going to have time for that.
• make sure the venue and catering are all ready for action
• double check ... no no ... quadruple check with everyone so that timing is perfect on the day

... just to name a few.

I'm still trying to get help with the table decor and flowers. Who knew things could be so difficult to find - and seriously, it not like I'm asking for things that aren't in season! People are seriously bad at giving quotations. And when they hear that you are asking due to a wedding function they load the price even more than usual! Shocking! Bunch of vultures I tell you! *shakes fist dramatically at sky*

The next major thing I have to sort out is going to buy the material needed for the Best woMan's dress, get it to the dress maker along with another picture of exactly what I want my dress to look like. Best I do that this weekend or we're going to be in serious doodoo.

All the invitations have been sent off - now we await the RSVP's to come in. I wish we could invite everyone we really want there. Hopefully those not invited will be understanding about the fact that its fooooooooking expensive to get married.

The last of the gift registries were set up this past weekend ... H2B couldn't make it, so I took the groomsman's wife and one of my offspring with me and got all trigger happy with the scanner. What fun. I just wish I could have bought all those things ... although if I did I'd need to either get a much bigger house or throw a lot of the things I currently have away. My bet is that the H2B would vote for the latter.

Dancing lessons are going famously. We have an awesome song now and are practicing to it at least once a week :) Our dancing teacher, Lesley, is the best! The epitome of patience - which with us is vital. I'm seriously wanting to go on with lessons when we're done and perhaps join one of her social couples

Met with our new DJ last week ... thank the heavens above he knows what he's doing. Gave us excellent advice and asked very good questions that raised issues we didn't even think about. Just more to do on that darn to do list.

I am seriously looking forward to getting away for the honeymoon. You have NO idea how badly I need a holiday. Life has been WAY to hectic recently.

I have found a way to relax though. Arts and crafts. If I don't make some time to do these things that I love then I will end up in Groendakkies. So at the moment I am knitting, crocheting and mozaicing. And it is AWESOME. I'll take some pics of what I've been doing and post them sometime soon.

Oh and I've joined the world of Twits too - all the fault of a lady I know who was tweeting about her birth progress while in labor. So if you are on there you can follow me too - "accordingtomeegs" ... not sure how the "look me up" function works yet

So as from 30 days I'm going to do a proper countdown to the big day and keep you posted on all the "aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggggggggggggg" moments to come :)

Any advice on any of the above would be welcomed too by the way -so feel free to comment please!

xxx
M

Pun intended ??

Energizer Bunny arrested - charged with battery.

A pessimist's blood type is always b-negative.

Practice safe eating - always use condiments.

A Freudian slip is when you say one thing but mean your mother.

Shotgun wedding: A case of wife or death.

I used to work in a blanket factory, but it folded.

If electricity comes from electrons... does that mean that morality comes from morons?

Marriage is the mourning after the knot before.

A hangover is the wrath of grapes.

Corduroy pillows are making headlines.

Is a book on voyeurism a peeping tome?

Dancing cheek-to-cheek is really a form of floor play.

Banning the bra was a big flop.

Sea captains don't like crew cuts.

Does the name Pavlov ring a bell?

A successful diet is the triumph of mind over platter.

Time flies like an arrow. Fruit flies like a banana.

A gossip is someone with a great sense of rumour.

Without geometry, life is pointless.

When you dream in colour, it's a pigment of your imagination.

Reading whilst sunbathing makes you well-red.

When two egotists meet, it's an I for an I.

Under 110 Days to go ....

Oh ... My .... Gosh!!!

I can't believe its that soon .... I'm feeling pretty prepared though. Although, we've been sending invites out and have just realised that we forgot to put in there that its a cash bar and a dress code. I'm assuming the people will realise that it's an evening wedding and will dress accordingly, but one never knows......

<---- Look at this dress!!! I'm going to be dressing my little girl in that style for the wedding ... won't that be STUNNING! I'd post what mine is going to look like, but that would give it away to the groom who up to this point only knows the colour of the material. I think I'll keep that one a secret... The bridesmaids are going to look totally amazing, by the way ... can't wait to see the completed picture. I'm going to try scan in the snippets of material I have and see if the colours come out well enough to post here ... just to give you all an idea of what we're going for here :) Excitement, excitement!!! Lets just hope it all pulls together to be one heck of a successful event. Heaven knows its a life changing one for me. I can't wait to be able to officially call this amazing man my husband! *sigh* I think I may just post a few pictures of the ideas I have had over the last few months for the big event ... needless to say I won't be able to pull them all off, but I still think they're great ideas. And yes, I'd love to hear what you all have to say.

On a different topic, I heard a saying the other day that made me feel all "warm and fuzzy" inside...

"The best kind of revenge is success!"

Yup, I believe that is going to be my motto in life ... well, it kind of has been actually. I've just never put it so many words. I love the way that my happiness and success has totally pissed off those people who have been cheering possible failure on. To all of them I say "HA HA HA!" (followed by a tongue being stuck out .... as apposed to lifting both my fists and raising my middle fingers with a grin on my face).


Yes people, you've got it right! I'm a constant surprise!